Moments

Well seems like a great time for some late night philosophy with Mattski. I've been doing some more thinking and talking with people as the trip draws nearer. I’ve come to two semi-realizations. Two things to discuss: moments and clean slates.

Life is simply made up of a series of moments. Some good, some bad. Some memorable. Some not so much. How do we know which is which? Sometimes what you think is the worst thing at the time ends up being something youll look back on as a good moment. Sometimes what you think youll always remember, you have a hard time remembering the next year, month, or even week. Which moments are really important? Which moments define who we are and who we’re going to be? I don't have the answers to these questions, but I do know that I have had some moments of my own and that this trip will provide even more. In the last couple of weeks I’ve seen shooting stars, swam across a lake, bonged a beer under water, danced with people I don't know, made a fool of myself, but ultimately made memories.

I want this trip to be filled with more memorable moments, the good moments as this summer has been so far. I want to party in Las Vegas so that when someone asks me 15 years from now what the craziest thing I’ve ever done is, Ill know. I want to watch the sunset over the grand canyon so when someone asks what the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen is, ill know. When someone asks me a question about my life, I want to have good answers, exciting answers, real answers. I want to do everything that I can possibly do and make these moments as memorable as possible.

The other thing ill keep short since this is already getting long (that's what she said). Clean slates. Blank pages. Wouldn’t it be cool to wake up every day with a clean slate? Somewhere where no one knows who you are or what you’re like? You could be anyone you wanted to be. You could do anything you wanted to do. That's the situation im going to be in over the next month. I get to choose who I want to be for that day and no one is gonna know the difference. Then the next day I can choose to be someone else. Every day will be a fresh start. Im excited to see how that changes who I am. And when I come back if I have changed, ill be coming back with a clean slate also. A fresh start to my senior year of college. The future holds many possibilities, all of which excite me.

One week. Cant wait.